I have spent the last two days cleaning. Scrubbing shit out of hardwood floors – literally shit. Scrubbing walls that had something I don’t want to know on them. Vomiting as I cleaned. And I have spent the last two days trying so hard to convince myself that this was not my fault. That I [...]
Posts Tagged ‘forgiveness’
Rape and Compassion
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, forgiveness, open heart, rape, safety, violation on August 26, 2009 | 4 Comments »
Personal Boundaries
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, being real, cjt, fearlessness, forgiveness, intimacy, open heart on May 29, 2009 | 1 Comment »
I’ve been thinking a lot about personal boundaries lately. How to keep them safe, when to stretch them, how to be graceful about them (putting them out there and making it known the line is getting pushed) and what to do when they are ignored. This is so much a part of living fearlessly and [...]
Crocus
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, cjt, family, forgiveness, open heart on April 12, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Something is eating my crocuses. Not the white ones, and the purple ones seem to be it’s second choice, but the mixed whited and purple striated ones are gone. History. Eaten down to a stump with not even a leaf left. I wonder, do the the different colors taste different? It’s kind of sad, because [...]
Karma and Reincarnation
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged forgiveness, gratitude, karma, M, manifestation, reincarnation on February 18, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I have a friend who is adopted. She and I have talked about her internal struggle with ‘having to feel grateful’ to her adoptive family for adopting her. The thing is, her childhood was wonderful, she was loved deeply, and her (in her mind) special status was never an issue, never used as a weapon [...]
