Bless my child’s heart. Keep a lookout for his safety. Let him have enough food and shelter in a storm. But not at my house. Never again at my house. There is such a mixed feeling involved in relationships that are abusive. More than that, when the abuser is your own child, there is guilt, [...]
Posts Tagged ‘abuse’
Fool me once…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, cjt, family, open heart on April 18, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
Rape and Compassion
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, forgiveness, open heart, rape, safety, violation on August 26, 2009 | 4 Comments »
I have spent the last two days cleaning. Scrubbing shit out of hardwood floors – literally shit. Scrubbing walls that had something I don’t want to know on them. Vomiting as I cleaned. And I have spent the last two days trying so hard to convince myself that this was not my fault. That I [...]
Personal Boundaries
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, being real, cjt, fearlessness, forgiveness, intimacy, open heart on May 29, 2009 | 1 Comment »
I’ve been thinking a lot about personal boundaries lately. How to keep them safe, when to stretch them, how to be graceful about them (putting them out there and making it known the line is getting pushed) and what to do when they are ignored. This is so much a part of living fearlessly and [...]
Crocus
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, cjt, family, forgiveness, open heart on April 12, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Something is eating my crocuses. Not the white ones, and the purple ones seem to be it’s second choice, but the mixed whited and purple striated ones are gone. History. Eaten down to a stump with not even a leaf left. I wonder, do the the different colors taste different? It’s kind of sad, because [...]
Friendship
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, being real, friendship, gratitude, privacy on April 6, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I’ve been meaning to write for a while, but I simply have not had time. But I’ve had this idea in my head, thoughts about the ways friendships develop, the care we have to give them, and the different values we assign to them. I’ve been making some really awesome friends this year – womyn [...]
Trigger was more than just Roy’s Horse
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged abuse, friendship, gratitude, karma, open heart, real, reincarnation on March 4, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Okay, first off, I want to warn anyone who has been sexually abused that this is what this post is about. I’ll put all that stuff further down, so you can decide whether or not you want to read it. This past weekend, I went out with some friends to Freeport, Maine to a little [...]
